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08:32pm 01/04/2010
  " It would be very nice to have a friend again. I would like that even more than a date." ~SC

I haven't posted here in maybe five years. Don't plan on starting again. Just wanted to put that out there, because I can't post it on Facebook. But the people who would be hurt by seeing on Facebook don't know about this old angst repository. And the people who might read into that statement and may or may not make something positive come out of it don't know about it either. And the people who might still follow the old LJ don't know who I'm talking about on either count. And that's the best thing for everyone. Including me.
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05:36pm 03/08/2008

i have no idea if you still read this, but i know you've tracked me down through livejournal before, so please call me sometime. or send me an email: saschalodge (at) gmail (dot) com. thanks.

also, anyone else who still reads this, please feel free to do the same -- I'd love to hear from you and say hi.
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09:41pm 16/04/2007
  happy birthday.  
07:58pm 02/09/2005
  Friday, September 2nd, 2005
Vacation is Over... an open letter from Michael Moore
to George W. Bush

Dear Mr. Bush:

Any idea where all our helicopters are? It's Day 5 of
Hurricane Katrina and thousands remain stranded in New
Orleans and need to be airlifted. Where on earth could
you have misplaced all our military choppers? Do you
need help finding them? I once lost my car in a Sears
parking lot. Man, was that a drag.

Also, any idea where all our national guard soldiers
are? We could really use them right now for the type
of thing they signed up to do like helping with
national disasters. How come they weren't there to
begin with?

Last Thursday I was in south Florida and sat outside
while the eye of Hurricane Katrina passed over my
head. It was only a Category 1 then but it was pretty
nasty. Eleven people died and, as of today, there were
still homes without power. That night the weatherman
said this storm was on its way to New Orleans. That
was Thursday! Did anybody tell you? I know you didn't
want to interrupt your vacation and I know how you
don't like to get bad news. Plus, you had fundraisers
to go to and mothers of dead soldiers to ignore and
smear. You sure showed her!

I especially like how, the day after the hurricane,
instead of flying to Louisiana, you flew to San Diego
to party with your business peeps. Don't let people
criticize you for this -- after all, the hurricane was
over and what the heck could you do, put your finger
in the dike?

And don't listen to those who, in the coming days,
will reveal how you specifically reduced the Army
Corps of Engineers' budget for New Orleans this summer
for the third year in a row. You just tell them that
even if you hadn't cut the money to fix those levees,
there weren't going to be any Army engineers to fix
them anyway because you had a much more important
construction job for them -- BUILDING DEMOCRACY IN

On Day 3, when you finally left your vacation home, I
have to say I was moved by how you had your Air Force
One pilot descend from the clouds as you flew over New
Orleans so you could catch a quick look of the
disaster. Hey, I know you couldn't stop and grab a
bullhorn and stand on some rubble and act like a
commander in chief. Been there done that.

There will be those who will try to politicize this
tragedy and try to use it against you. Just have your
people keep pointing that out. Respond to nothing.
Even those pesky scientists who predicted this would
happen because the water in the Gulf of Mexico is
getting hotter and hotter making a storm like this
inevitable. Ignore them and all their global warming
Chicken Littles. There is nothing unusual about a
hurricane that was so wide it would be like having one
F-4 tornado that stretched from New York to Cleveland.

No, Mr. Bush, you just stay the course. It's not your
fault that 30 percent of New Orleans lives in poverty
or that tens of thousands had no transportation to get
out of town. C'mon, they're black! I mean, it's not
like this happened to Kennebunkport. Can you imagine
leaving white people on their roofs for five days?
Don't make me laugh! Race has nothing -- NOTHING -- to
do with this!

You hang in there, Mr. Bush. Just try to find a few of
our Army helicopters and send them there. Pretend the
people of New Orleans and the Gulf Coast are near


Michael Moore

P.S. That annoying mother, Cindy Sheehan, is no longer
at your ranch. She and dozens of other relatives of
the Iraqi War dead are now driving across the country,
stopping in many cities along the way. Maybe you can
catch up with them before they get to DC on September
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10:46pm 05/07/2005
  HAPPY (slightly belated) BIRTHDAY HANNAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so so sorry for not wishing you a happy day yesterday, but i was thinking of you. hope you had a good one and wishing you the best of years ahead.
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11:41pm 03/07/2005
  until january...

on that note, will i be able to see the big dipper from the southern hemisphere?
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02:45pm 02/07/2005
  today we managed to lose the following:
1 canoe
2 paddles
1 nalgene
2 pairs of sandals
1 t-shirt
actually, we didn't really lose them - we know exactly where they are.

if you happen to be on the miller's river somewhere downstream of south royalston, please keep an eye out for them. thanks.
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in the summer heat i might...   
10:52pm 22/06/2005
  write-in-the-rain paper is the most amazing stuff in the entire world.

i talked to a mr potter this afternoon (perhaps of some relation to a 'harry'?) and he was very nice and gave me permission to sample hemlocks on his neighbor's property -- the only place on the entire street that was not plastered w/no trespassing signs. evan was right: the richer people are, the more "keep out" signs they put up. bah to that.

we made a bonfire out back last night to celebrate the solstice with marshmallows and the moon.

caitlin called me tonight :-) absolutely made my night...even if i was swearing at the phone when it started ringing because i has assumed it would be for someone else and that i would lose my coveted posession of the phone. but it was very good to hear about good food and pastels and first-aid kits and to talk about trees (wait, isn't that what i always do?).

did i mention that i love write-in-the-rain?
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growing up is simply for the weak   
10:42pm 20/06/2005
  monday night frisbee. until a lightup frisbee is necessary and i can't see for the life of me to tell who's on my team and who's not. and rallying from 5 points down to tie up the game, only to lose by one. good times.

went to sites by myself for the first time today. gets a little lonely sometimes, but so far i'm doing ok finding them. much harder to drive and follow the maps at the same time though. passed a house with a doberman tied out front. had to turn around 'cause i missed the turn off to my site and passed the house again to realize that there was also a goat tied out front next to the doberman. sampled the site and headed back out the dirt road and passed the next house to see a calf tied to a tree next to the porch. this is why i love middle-of-nowhere massachusetts.

i woke up this morning to find an allstu war dedicated to me. i love those kids. also bought a plane ticket to chicago tonight. aug 20-23. get to see both my twin and my favorite corruptive influence in one trip. sweet deal.

my computer's freaking out again. currently running nortin to see if that'll help. not too hopeful though. still wishing i had a mac...

congrats to the poag kids for making it through day 1. hope things went well (and know that i expect updates :-P). miss you all.
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this is the face that launched a thousand ships   
10:38pm 13/06/2005
mood: reflective
tell me i'm yours tell me you're mine tell me i'm anything but fine tell me a story tell me the time (tell me a lie)

so at the request of andy, "six" songs...i have to say that i think i'm going to be hard pressed to make them all not be by zox...so i might not even try:

1. zox - "anything but fine"
2. zox - "leaving me"
3. zox - "carolyn"
4. zox - "spades"
5. zox - "canon"
6. zox - "big fish"
7. zox - "ghostown"
8. zox - "rain on me"

i think i'm noticing a pattern. it might possibly be called obsession.

there's something 'bout coming home to california...there's something 'bout coming home

and the amusing realization of the day - i was only ever really homesick while in ohio 12 hours from home on my birthday freshman year, but tonight, while 45 minutes from home, i was homesick. strange feeling.

big fish little fish don't swim back to me
circle my ship and slip back into the sea
i'm sending out a warning 'cause i think you oughta know
if catching you is easy then i'm gonna have to let you go

one of my roommates commented last night that she hadn't yet gotten around to her planned "soul-searching" - essentially figuring out what she wants to do with her life, and "separating needs from wants and shoulds." i replied that there was plenty of time for that, and noted that since i'm here now and going away in the fall, i can avoid thinking about any of that until january. then i realized that was true. and a terrible idea. might get on that sometime soon. might.

summer swept chicago and left us with a little bit of rain...to walk back out amongst the strangers, strangers who've grown closer than my friends

also realized this weekend that this is the first time (in my life?) that i'm in a situation for an extended period of time and do not have someone who i consider myself close to. i've been here two weeks now, there's a bunch of cool kids, fun to hang out with, friends with pretty much everyone, but i have actually opened up to no one at all. and it's interesting. strange. i miss talking to my friends in person. email and the phone really just don't cut it for real conversations about anything meaningful.

don't you know me better than that? don't you know i know you? giving your words and then taking them back, can't you see you're see through?

so much more to say, and nothing will be said at all. isn't that the way it always goes?
take care.
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06:08pm 08/06/2005
  -it rained caterpillar poop today. on my head.
-we also found six different caterpillar species on one 8' tall oak tree.
-yesterday i felt lost in the woods for the first time in my life.
-i do not like mountain laurel. at all. looks too much like hemlock from afar and is very misleading (not to mention that it was a main factor in me getting dreadfully disoriented yesterday).
-one of our sites today was replaced by a golf course.
-there was a guy wearing a white hat on the golf course.
-i'm starting to see the very distict two-toned shades of green possessed by hemlocks, and through that, gradually getting faster in locating and sampling them.
-granola bars are wonderful. yogurt is growing on me too.
-we might be able to finish all 36 sites in CT by friday (in time for me to drive back to HF for dinner). dave expected it to take us 3 weeks to finish them all. at this rate, it'll take us 1.
-next will come the 60+ MA sites...but those might take longer because i'll be on my own for most of them. s'okay though, they're more north, therefore more trees closer together + less HWA = easier sampling
-so maybe i'll go to grad school? seems to be the cool thing to do if one's pursuing a future in ecology. california sounds intriguing.
-i'm very much looking forward to "sleeping in" on saturday before the invasive species inventory day...the sad thing is, i'll be up at 8am for that...but that's an hour and a half later than i'll have slept in since last sunday. craziness.
-so i should be able to take a couple of days off sometime later in the summer, due to working 12 hours for three days this week and 8 on the other two. might see if i can get my eyes checked because i'm starting to get convinced that i'm turning into my parents and slowly losing them. i ate a carrot with lunch today. might be a little too late for that.
-oh, and i got a cell phone. do you see the pigs flying? just a prepaid tracfone though 'cause i'll only be in the country to use it until the beginning of september, so not a real phone with a plan and whatnot (so no worries, hell isn't freezing over quite yet).
-currently on a computer in the bio building of the university of rhode island campus in the lab belonging to the fiance of my mentor. that's a mouthful. be back in petersham friday evening.
-congrats again to the parker kids. hope all went well tonight.
-take care.
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a cool quarter to two in a messed up room i'm watching you   
09:32pm 05/06/2005
  fyi: i am disappearing for the next 4-5 days due to traveling to research sites in southern connecticut for the week. i'll be back on thursday or friday for the weekend, then headed back south next week. after that i should be living here permanently.

preemptive huge congratulations to the parker class of '05. well done kids. i'm sorry i can't make it on wednesday. have a blast.

some observations of note:
-college kids and the beach always make a wonderful combination.
-it's amazing how good vitamin D synthesis can make you feel (aka i love the sun).
-my computer was resurrected. so nice to have it back.
-i have an immense enjoyment of ultimate players. and an old guy (well, he was probably only about 50) tossed with us on the beach. and schooled us. go figure.
-watched a couple raise their entwined hands over a parking meter as they walked on opposite sides of it yesterday...damn gap trail, haha
-thought i was going to die biking on the trails today. good times. good times.
-dan gave me a four-leaf clover today. told me he'd already found four or five in the front lawn. lucky kid, i guess.
-greatest view ever from the fire tower in the HF -- saw wachusett, monadnock, and trees out to the horizons. beautiful.

Dream goes home and she dreams a dream
in color, red, yellow and blue
on the biggest blank wall that you've ever seen
up there with the billboards
just like the big boys
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05:14pm 01/06/2005
  my computer died today.
and by died i mean dead.
not good.
not good at all.
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as i walked down to kendall square...   
10:36pm 31/05/2005
mood: content
assorted observations:
out of the 20 or so of us who were here yesterday early evening, none knew what to do with direct-tv. three remotes is way too many. we all grew up no cable or barely cable kids. pretty funny. so there's a tv in the house that no one watches, even though it has 500 channels. amusing. we almost got tickets for the sox game on saturday, but between the time tom asked us if we wanted to go and when we responded with a resounding yes, they were sold out. another time perhaps. i took my first tree core today. it's on my windowsill as a souvenir. met my mentor tonight. going to be an interesting summer. should be good though. came to the conclusion this afternoon that i'm back at school. well, at least definitly back in a highly academic environment. i get to drive a honda civic all summer. should be fun.

that's all.
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you realize the sun doesn't go down it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning 'round   
11:32pm 30/05/2005
mood: intrigued
please explain:
why are their two separate faucets located on opposite sides of the sink that pour water into the sink, where one faucet expels hot water and one expels cold water? the water does not mix until it hits the sink basin, not allowing you to create running warm water. quite a challenge.

was crazy wierd this afternoon -- repeatedly made us think we might be being filmed for a reality show due to putting 25 or so approximately college-aged kids from all across the US in a house in the middle of nowhere massachusetts (without cellphone reception, haha) who know they're about to start doing research tomorrow that in some way involves trees but don't know much more than that. pretty funny. but throughout the evening i determined that there's some good kids in the bunch. should be a solid summer.

i might add that i miss you. maybe.
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12:06pm 27/05/2005
  HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

see you tonight :-)

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11:05pm 24/05/2005
  let's do something on friday with camp people. what should we do? meeting for dinner somewhere was my one vague idea. anyone have any better thoughts? or suggestions as to where? and preferences for a time? (and pepperell kids, can i possibly bum a ride off of one of you? thanks...)

and spread the word to all those silly people who don't check LJ compulsively.
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10:09pm 22/05/2005
  just because i'm a dork and miss these kids way more than i should...
my favorite apartment ever

and also

the twins and their corruptive influence
it's not my place to find it not something that i get to choose don't be scared 'cause you're not...   
09:34pm 21/05/2005
mood: content
some people buy dressy clothes. you don't do that. we never even bought you a prom dress.
my mother's justification for spending too much on really cool pants and the most waterproof jacket imaginable at EMS this afternoon. oh, and wool socks. socks are key.

evan still hasn't emailed me back though, so i still can't tell you how hardcore we'll be this summer. i'm hoping he gets back to me soon so i can make some semblance of sense in terms of what i'm packing. and, you know, maybe have some sense of what my life will be like for the next twelve weeks. details, details, i suppose.

two of my closest friends graduated from college today. i wish i could have been there.

massachusetts is nice. ohio is a lot more fun, but massachusetts is relaxing. albeit slightly nerve-wracking (mostly due to family and other time-sensitive commitments), but not stressful like academia. ah, balance. how i love thee. i'll be ready to leave next weekend though. but until then, it's nice to be here.

that's all.
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don't try to wake me in the morning 'cause i will be gone   
10:21am 20/05/2005
  so it really isn't nice to start cutting down very large trees across the street from my house at 7:40am. and the phone ringing just after 9 when you've only barely managed to fall back asleep doesn't help either. but i get to see adrienne tonight. and that will make me very happy. :-)  
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